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Tuesday, September 28, 2010, 11:23 PM
Dear God
Was coming back home thinking of how to spend my money. Whether to return it to my uncle first or change my seats, get a new suspension . . transition lens and so many more WANTS-But when I get home, I saw that lying on the living room's sofa. The second thing I notice, what mum applying medicine on his leg.
My had to swallow my saliva. My heart felt like it had encounted a free fall, the feeling was terrible.
Mum said it was just Old man's sickness. People grow old, it is part and parcels of life.
I couldn't understand what she's saying, how could she made those words so simple to speak. She must have been through all these pains as well.
Dad started speaking, "I'm not worried about these acheing legs nor my falling eye sight, it's my cough that I'm really worried about".
Yea.. Dad always work at places with people smoking, he doesn't smoke but it's all those selfish people who doesn't know to keep their sins to themselves.
As he speaks I felt that my legs and stucked on the ground, I can't move them, neither could I stare away as mum apply medicine on those aching legs of Dad.
It hurts me even more because Dad had always been a very strong person in my mind.
He doesn't fall sick easily, doesn't need a bolster to sleep or a blanket even when it's in December.
He exercise regularly, He Jogs twice every week be rain or shine; for as long as I can remember.
My family-tree have a history of lungs infection. My Grandpa past away because of lung cancer, and my Uncle past away because of throat cancer.
I'm just confused. It is when all my WANTS are gone, maybe temporary but as clear as for now I'm just concerned about taking of my burden on them.
My studies, I need to be consistent. If you fail to plan, you'll plan to fail.
And I guess I really, really need to save up some C.A. for future use.
Catching up with this diary soon as I'm going to take a rest for a newer day to come when the Sun rises.