Just find out that I have miss out a lot with my friends. Some have been to China( w school? w friends? for attachment?) seriously I don't even know until they are back and saw their messages. I still owe 2 friends a movie haha. I thought I have handled my life properly, I thought I wish( I already have done everything i suppose to do) BUT.. the fact is that all of the good guy I have seen in myself is just bullshit. I have been a selfish person, arrogant, ok a new word I learn in school, Narcissism Isn't it weird to type all this? maybe not, lol. Cos this moment I have a very clear state of my mind.